Acceptance

(Words in italics was said by HIM. And bolded words are said by HER)

I was looking at him from head to toe. I want to know the answer. Yet..

“You are crazy. How could I do that to you? Are you that paranoid to give me that stern look? I didn’t do anything. “

I cried hard last night. I was not able to contact him. You know what? He is a complete asshole.

I knew she saw me last night. I feel bad about it that I canceled whatever I had to do that day and just go straight home. I hate seeing you hurt.

I will ignore him. I must.

“Sorry but I have to go. I'll be late for work.”

“Hey! Carrie, hey! What’s up with the look?” *You look beautiful today.*

“Nothing, I just want to feel beautiful today” *Even though I am hurting*

I want to say sorry. But I can’t. I don’t think I have to.

“Well, Ok. See you later then?”

“Sure.”

I don’t know how to make him realize that I don’t like him lying when it comes to him playing computer games with other guys. It’s ok with me and I totally understand that he needs time with his so-called friends. But please, I don’t want you lying about it.

Later that afternoon…

I need to say sorry to her. I know she felt bad about it. I lied to her.

“I’m sorry. I know I’m a total jerk and lied to you but I’m very sorry. Please forgive me.”

I love him and I want to tell him how I felt about what he did.

“It’s ok, Dino. I just felt bad because you lied to me. I was hoping that it won’t happen again, ok?”

I hugged her so tight. I don’t want see her sad or whatsoever. I just want to feel that she’s happy with me.

I felt loved. I know he won’t be doing that again. I accepted him for who he is and I am quite sure that he’ll do his best to protect me from any hurt.

I loved her for who she is. Not because she’s the most beautiful woman that I have meet, but because the mere fact that I’m ok with her, I fell more deeply in love.

I love him because he is what he is. No pretensions. I like him for making me feel that I made the right choice of marrying him.

I made the right choice of proposing marriage to her. I am lucky to have her around.

Acceptance.

I'll be Staying

That is a promise.

I grew up knowing that promises should not and must not be broken. Experiences from the past helped me to be doubtful of every word that other people will tell me. I became hesitant to make friends easily.

I promised myself not to be affected by the people around me. I'll stand firm to the decisions that I make. I'll be confident no matter what. I tried to be strong for myself alone.

You got me. You made a difference on the life that I am living in right now. No one's perfect, but you are the most upright person that I have known so far. You keep your promises.

Today, I made a promise. I got the signs. Don't worry. I'll be staying no matter what.

My Boyfriend and his "HOBBY"

I was a bit pissed with his idea of going somewhere in Taft just to join a tournament for StarCraft. Yeah. I'm jealous. I know, I'm childish. But so what? I want his full attention when I'm telling my story. I want to hear his opinions when I am struggling to seek for some.

I super hate you right now. You make me feel unimportant.

*I'm just ranting all my ugly thoughts about this PC game. Nothing personal*

You're Still Be The Only One

I love how you touch me. The way you give me that look when I did something wrong. You are my confidante. You keep me sane while I struggle in insanity of the world that I am living in.

You prepare to crack those oh-so-corny jokes yet you never fail to make me smile and even laugh hard.

I may always get irritated with you and your computer games, I still love you for whatever you are. Whatever you do, whatever your personality is-- I LOVE YOU.

I may not be that hundred percent sure that we'll stay together for the rest of our lives, but the fact that I have you with me today, I'll be more than thankful and hopeful for the next big things that will happen in the near future.

You may not stay the same-- in a few years, you'll have your aging look and I will have wrinkles all over my face, I'll still stay in love with you no matter what.

Thank you for accepting all my flaws. Thank you for making me your one and only "Goddess" :) I may have those unpredictable mood swings, but you are still there to help me out when I need you most.

I'll forever treasure the great times that we have shared for the past years that we have known each other.

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Having friends and you still sane makes life still worth living for. I love you friend. I'll always be here to wipe those tears away and make you laugh. I'll listen to your sentiments over and over again and hug you tight when you needed one. ♥